Money, money, money!

Spring has come and as I said in my first blog post we have so many plans for things we want to do. It's really very exciting except after dropping a bunch of money this weekend the cheapskate voice in my head has awakened and begun to talk.

Last month we had our bikes stolen out of our shed. Ya, a total piss off as Josh would call it. Very frustrating and not just the thefts but insurance and all the after effects. I won't go into it as most people know how shitty red tape is. So this weekend we went to get our new bikes. It was one of those things that we thought we better replace now or we never will. And we for sure want to ride our bikes this summer and take them camping with us. Which means a new bike rack or hitch for Josh's new Forester. Ack!

Speaking of cars another few hundred dollars dropped this weekend on a coiuple new all-season tires for mine.

Looking for new shoes as well. Trail runners. Looks like will be going with the new Vibram Five Finger shoes. The ones with the toes. I thought they would feel so weird, but after trying them on for the second time (the first time I has such a hard time getting them on I wanted to throw them at the sales guy) I think I like them too.  Once again Josh getting me to try something new - a good thing!

We still need some camping gear before the season starts, not to mention the cost of just going camping and doing the things we want to do. I know that fun things are what make life worth living and not much is free in this world but still .... I can't help worrying a little that it might throw us off our goals. I don't have a lot of worry that it will but just a little. We have been doing very well saving, especially with the fact that both of us do not have a great track record with finances, so I cannot see us stopping that now. Even more with the fact that our neighbourhood has done to shit and more then ever I just want to get out to the country

I guess it's all about priorities. Like how we now probably spend a little more on our food than we used to but we know it is better healthier food so we don't mind. We just spend less on other things and I don't even remember what those other things are so I must not miss them!

And then there's baby! I do not want to even imagine financial costs of that! But once again this weekend we figured out how much we are on the same page (at least about some things). ;) We both seemed to agree that we don't need to go crazy buying baby things and we are  just fine with plain furniture and supplies. We will let all the excited people buy the cute, trendy stuff. 'Cause you know they will anyway. Josh told me to hurry up and get pregnant then as he wants this just as badly as I do. Funny thing is that when he said that it made me realize that I have relaxed about it and have resigned myself to wait until it happens.

But waiting sucks!!!  :)

Success!

Morning! I have been thinking this morning of two successes I would like to share. I fell share is a good word and in the same vein as my being positive goals. Bragging had always had a negative connotation and it seems women, from my experience, don't like to be seen as bragging about themselves. But we should share more!!

First one is the other week I was able to fit in to my skinny jeans! And it wasn't a fluke as I'm wearing them again today! It sounds like such a cliche and I have always thought that this should never be a goal of losing weight. I have also always thought that you shouldn't hang on to these said clothes simply for the hope they will fit again. It's depressing when you don't. The reason I helped on to them was not out of vanity but of cheap-ness (maybe another flaw of mine). I paid good money for them at a nice store and hated the thought of donating them. So in the drawer they sat. I have another pair as well but haven't tried them on to see if they fit yet. Anywhoo, this will certainly not be a goal of mine to try to fit into everything I once wore and trust me I have gotten rid of other things that I cannot believe I was small enough to wear at once time.

The really great thing about it thought is that for once in my life I have not been trying to loose weight! Josh and I went paleo in the hopes of feeling better and getting healthier. It certainly worked and a side effect has been a fair amount of weight loss.

Second success is that last night I was in a much better mood at the gym! I had a good workout and am happy with what I accomplished. Hurayy!

I think I might have just thought of a third success. Being happy period. My silliness is back and judging form Josh's reaction it must have been gone for awhile. But at least he seemed happy about it too!

Feeling Good

Feeling really good today! Seems like something has been lifted and I feel happier than as of late. It was brought to my attention the other night that I have been quite down on myself lately about several things.

We have been trying to get pregnant since about December. No one else really knows we have made this decision and thank god since it hasn't happened yet. I have been putting too much pressure on myself about it and so can't imagine how much pressure I would feel with others wondering how it is going. I know I should relax about it and I have read all the stuff about what to do and what not to, I just can't seem to help feeling tense about it. I have these irrational worries that I have done something wrong to prevent getting pregnant or that for so long I did not want to have a child that the universe gave my chance to someone else who wanted it. I know, crazy.

I have always had the personality flaw of being too hard on myself when I think things are not going right. I really think it has gotten better as I get older but I have had a bad bout of it recently and I'm sure it is because I am not pregnant yet. And that has spread to everything else, including crossfit.

I was listening to a podcast yesterday and this morning on the drive from and too work. Podcasts are another thing Josh got me on to. I knew they were out there but never bothered to look into it, or maybe just did not think I had anything interesting to download. Listening to them I have realized there are some super smart people out there and am envious at times. Anyways on the Underground Wellness podcast he had someone on who wrote a book called A Philosopher's Notes. One of those guys who have found a way to live their best life and all that. It was about fears holding you back, goals, and all that junk we always hear about and that I have looked up or read before. However it came at a great time as I obviously needed a reminder and renewed perspective on things.

My love Josh always does very well saying the right things to reassure me and I think it seems like I don't listen to him sometimes but it isn't that. I'm slow to believe maybe, or need more sources saying the same thing for me to really get it.  

Whatever it is I think I am on the road back to getting it. Or at least I have a renewed sense to try. I'm going to check out his website and see what it's all about. And probably blog about it too. ;)

Hello World!

Hi! This is my first stab at a blog of my own so bear with me! For some reason I cannot really explain I have been wanting to have one of these for a little while now, but was avoiding it due to the impression that I think I am not interesting or a good writer. Some people say I am. Others say they blog for themselves anyway so one does not need to be interesting. lol. I'm not sure what my goals are for this but as the title suggests I'm sure it will evolve.


tran·si·tion

1. Passage from one form, state, style, or place to another.

I think maybe one reason I have been wanting to blog is all the changes, or transitions if you will, that I keep noticing lately. They have been going on for about a year and a half since I met my boyfriend Josh. Some transitions have been on my own, such as the adjustment from long time single girl to girlfriend and most recently from very active derby girl to semi-retired derby girl. This one was tough.

Other transitions we have done together. Like starting a paleo lifesyle and doing crossfit.

And we have plans for future transitions. Like moving to the country and building an eco-friendly, self sustanable house. Trust me, city girl to country girl was not a change I even thought I would want to make but is becoming much more appealing by the day!

Plans and goals and wants and activities are just swimming in my head right now! I think it is the transition from winter to spring that stirs these things up for all of us. A new start, a new chance to do the things we didn't last year. I've been making a list so I try not to forget.

Hey! That's something I could put in my blog now! lol